A question lingers like a floating bubble in the space between you and a friend.
He asked you to do something you don’t want to do. Maybe he urged you to attend a party or eat at a restaurant or help move furniture to his new apartment.
Part of you wants to reach out and swat the invitation away. Part of you fears what would happen if you did.
Yet saying “no” is one of the most liberating skills you can acquire.
Otherwise, your life and everything within it is reachable by the creature above, one you call a friend. What is yours — including your time, money, schedule, and personal choices — is his.
If the dilemma sounds familiar, you might be a person who extends himself for others — a lot. Indeed, the extent of your extension feels like your arm is made of rubber.
Here are five of those pointers in paraphrased form:
- A tendency to offer help even when you’re burned out.
- Making immediate apologies for incidental problems you didn’t cause.
- You believe you are responsible for the moods of those about whom you care.
- You encounter guilt, worry, or anxiety when you don’t meet the expectations created for you.
- Conflict avoidance: an attempt to side-step or give-in because of alarm over angering someone else.
The New York Times list is not exhaustive, so I’ve added a few:
- A penchant for ignoring your discomfort: saying “yes” when “no” would be the authentic answer.
- A movie of you would display excessive smiling as you attempt to create a pleasant persona, thus invalidating your actual state of body and mind.
- You offer multiple excuses when trying to circumvent an invitation or request.
- Unanswered prayers for permission to skate past the friend’s solicitation leave you helpless.
- An inclination comes over you to enlist a companion, parent, or lover to say “no” for you.
- Many days feature you enduring both the sensation of pressure to be what you are not and the inability to withstand the stress.
- An impulse occurs to delay your answer to a counterpart’s entreaty in the hope the matter will be forgotten.
- You cannot strike down the habit of kicking yourself after you agree to do a task you now wish to flee.
- On the occasions you avoid the commitment, you pray for forgiveness from the buddy.
- You believe “goodness” is never failing to “be there” for the other. The definition is both wrong and impossible to accomplish.
- A sense of relief descends like a balm when an acquaintance cancels plans you agreed to.
- You furnish unsolicited favors, in particular, if you believe you’ve been a disappointment to someone whose attention you covet.
- You buy gifts to win the respect of the individual who matters to you.
What are we talking about? You inhabit the role of a “pleaser” who renders service as if employed as a servant.
Feelings of insecurity fuel your self-effacing behavior, undervaluing the talent and personality that makes you engaging and lovable.
You also display a misunderstanding of what you owe the rest of humanity and what is owed you. Your notion of obligation is inflated and determined by those who find you useful.
The problem, unless you change, gains you little, but rather:
- More, not fewer requests because your reliable responsiveness reinforces the petitioner.
- Endless reactiveness to the prods and pulls of your social circle leave you empty, unable to care for yourself. A chronic low mood and possible depression may follow.
- Your actions get you less than you hoped for from those to whom you are over-generous with your time. Rather than producing profuse praise, your exertions become entitlements. Moreover, any guarantee of reciprocation when you need help exists as a fantasy alone.
- Your repeated denial of desires meaningful to you creates a state in which you receive limited respect. The world views you as the rare self-effacing creature without any personal cravings or needs.
- Public statements asserting your joy in “helping” diminish the very acts you perform. The willingness to do what the other asks informs him he needn’t value those labors either.
- You hesitate to test whether this man will continue to keep you near if you quit the self-created job of gopher. Perhaps he would, but the risk of finding out terrifies you.
To the extent COVID-19 keeps you indoors, you might have a reprieve from the typical inundation of calls for favors. With the opening of society before conditions are safe, the pressure to perform your usual array of circus tricks may increase.
The stakes of going along with what friends want shall then include your health.
Should you recognize someone who looks like you in this people-pleasing portrait, professional assistance is available. While people-pleasing isn’t a formal diagnostic category, I’d encourage you to request a therapist who understands the concern.
A counselor who is skilled at delivering acceptance and mindfulness-based treatment, such as ACT (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy), deserves your consideration. Empirically validated interventions offer you increased assurance of benefit from a psychotherapeutic journey.
Living as a hostage to self-interested others is in your power to overcome. The choice to be useful is not the same as being used.
Fulfillment arrives when you experience the freedom not to.
In contrast, having to do what is distasteful because you fear rejection is a kind of ritual of sacrifice. Those who love you do not wish you such unhappiness.
Friends who tally your worth in the hours of uncompensated labor you supply may be lost as you change. Successful treatment, however, allows you a greater balance between give-and-take within your social connections.
The choice is yours.
The first image is the Logo of the National Reconnaissance Office. The second object is an Ethiopian Stop Sign modified by Fry1989. Finally comes a Thumbs Down Sign, the work of KaiO.Ried. All three were sourced from Wikimedia Commons.