The Remarkable Impact of Being Seen: More on Erotic Transference and Love

I treated the unfaithful of every faith. Many led conscientious lives of mindful moral rectitude. How surprised they were when religion and family didn’t insulate them from infidelity.

What is the magic in the eyes of another – including a therapist – who looks, hears, and understands you? What characteristic of new love turns people upside down, in or out of marriage?

Let’s begin with what is believed about straying spouses. Conventional wisdom in the United States labels extra-marital sex as a matter of evil intent (active pursuit of someone else), lust, and “trading up” to an attractive partner who is often younger. Potential injury to the spouse is an afterthought, when thought at all. You are “bad” to cross the line. A more charitable opinion indicts absent willpower. Perhaps I believed such views myself when I began my practice.

Then I encountered people who were wracked with guilt and still loved the mate from whom they’d strayed. These folks led principled lives and consciously avoided or resisted such opportunities for years, until …

The secret ingredient explaining the attraction of a new person may be the same quality many a patient finds in her therapist.

Yes, most everyone wants sexual intimacy, but put warm bodies aside for a moment. Let us also set aside those who do seek to “trade up.”

Recognize this: we all want to be known or “be seen,” and once seen, embraced for the entirety of our being. Some don’t receive this gift because they hide themselves from others, avoiding openness. One can disguise oneself in public, creating a persona quite different from the truth of your existence. Then, even if people enjoy or admire you, the stunt double receives the applause, not you.

For many, the externals get in the way of being understood and accepted in totality. I’m speaking of those who are too beautiful, too plain; too fat, too thin; too rich, too poor; too young or too old. Even too gifted or too “average.” The barrier of these qualities is not surmounted. The other’s X-rays do not penetrate the dominating impression made by those outward facts. The “package” remains unwrapped, the contents unrevealed.

Now think of what a good therapist does. He gradually understands you, comes to know your secrets, observes how you think, what makes you laugh, grasps why you cry. He cups his hands and catches your tears. You become more than your externals to him. You experience less emptiness in his presence. Indeed, you might believe you have been newly minted because, for the first time in forever, someone perceives you with fresh eyes.

When you look in his eyes you see your reflection. In a flash the disjointed world takes form. For the first time. At last.

Think of a small child who loves you. You might be his mom or dad or grandparent, his aunt or uncle, his baby sitter or neighbor. You come into his home and he runs to you, embraces you, and shines the light of his being on your being. Therapists come close to having this effect on some of their patients. A new lover shares the capacity of the small one to make your heart full to bursting. You are their universe, the focal point of their life. The longer you have lived as an “unknown,” the more likely you will be overwhelmed.

Even in good marriages we can get taken for granted and take the other for granted. Or perhaps one’s universe was never fully encompassed by the spouse. Maybe the routine of working, getting, spending, raising kids, cleaning house, and mowing the lawn wears us down, dulls our vision. You might not have known the room of your life was dark and cold until an attractive stranger shines his light on you: looks at you in a way that makes you remember the long missing warmth of the summer sun. It is not only the sex that draws one to stray, it is the sparkle in the other’s eyes.

No, I’m not giving the unfaithful a pass. I am trying to understand them.

New or old, in love or friendship, we must see the other with new eyes. That is what therapists do.

Call it a survival technique.

Call it love.

Call it our duty.

We must try.

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Bette Davis is the actress in the top photo.

 

9 thoughts on “The Remarkable Impact of Being Seen: More on Erotic Transference and Love

  1. Thank you, PP, for your abundant praise. Re: blaming yourself, those who dissociate to a large degree do so out of necessity. Then, as you’ve described, once recovering enough to be less dissociative, they do have to learn how to live in a new way: solve problems without reliance on their dissociative capacities. Properly understood, DID (MPD) and similar conditions are survival techniques without which one would have (in some cases) literally perished. It appears that you are working on solving those problems left after the dissociation has been muted. You aren’t to be blamed, rather praised for surviving and still adapting to the new set of conditions in a life past a double-edged skill-set you have overcome, however necessary it once was.

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    • Peace Penguin

      Thank you, Dr. S., for deleting my replies. (You don’t have to delete this one, now that I have more clarity.) Your post speaks to the heart of trying to understand those who cheat, and to potentially help those who do. Most people would get mad at the cheater, instead of trying to understanding the reasons why they are doing that, and what help they need to challenge that behavior. In my observations with a friend I’ve known who has cheated to me being the one cheated on, and as an incest survivor who felt guilty for her own father cheating on my mom with me, I believe there are different reasons why people cheat, if cheating is the behavior of interest. The etiology for cheating, to me, is the important factor in this issue, so as to get to the crux of how to help the person who cheats. Some people cheat once, and others cheat repeatedly. Who the person is cheating with is also seemingly important. Overall, I think that there’s many different contexts and etiologies for why a person cheats, and there’s different degrees to which a person cheats (e.g., a person who repeatedly cheats versus a person who cheats during midlife crisis versus a person who cheats because they are really attracted to the same sex versus a person who cheats because they are a pedophile or have some other paraphilic disorder). Thank you so much for responding, and for explaining to me that I dealt with a survival skill, and that I’m not to be blamed. I’m simply dealing with adjustments with my newfound freedom and life, and that’s a good thing!

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    • Dr. S. I won’t reply here with how your response has helped me, but I will share a link to a blog post I just created: https://wordpress.com/post/peacepenguin1974.wordpress.com/42 …You seem like a really awesome and well-seasoned therapist, apart from being an amazing writer! You know how to see your clients, and I was truly touched when I initially replied with how much I wanted to be seen in treatment (or by others). I’m sure you have touched the lives of everyone who has entered your office or have read your blogs – I know you surely have touched my heart. Anyway, I just thought I’d share a link to something I’m making progress with – because of your reply. Thank you!

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      • drgeraldstein

        Thank you for the link to an interesting piece. You have a very nuanced and knowing awareness of human experience in extremity. I’m delighted you are making progress, PP. Best of all, to know I have touched your heart. Thank you.

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      • Peace Penguin

        Aw, thank you, Dr. S. And you’re welcome.

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  2. Dr. Stein, while I read your post I couldn’t help but think about Angela’s poem, “Camelot or Haunted Eden,” that I featured on my recent post. For her husband, she was “[his] universe, the focal point of [his] life.”

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  3. […] ‘The Remarkable Impact of Being Seen’ is the first part of the title of one of Dr Stein’s recent posts. The remainder of the title is ‘More on Erotic Transference and Love’. I have written both about erotic transference and love for my therapist, but it’s not this aspect of the post that I felt compelled to write about. […]

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